Yeah, the second holiday is coming... After the first holiday that seemed to have passed in such a short time...
Two more exams and then I can say good bye to my 5th semester, such a semester full of boredom, laziness, sleepiness, and other kinds of -ness... This is the worst semester I've ever had, I think... This semester my GPA will decrease, I know that; and it such a pain, dammit... But what to do, I really really don't understand most of the subjects I took in this semester... For example: Spectrometric Analysis; Structure and Chemical Bonding; Scientific Mathematics; Transition Metals and Catalysis; Chemistry Principia... 5 of 8 subjects I took, most of them I don't know what they are talking about. Why? Is it something wrong with my brain here? I don't think so, because I still can do some of them, but most of them are really weird ones. Or is it that I am too tired because of taking 23 SKS this semester? Maybe, but still I'm not that tired that I cannot play etc etc...
Is it the lecturer? Well, I don't want to say so, but I cannot really understand what the Spectrometric Analysis lecturer says. She teachs here and there, jump here and jump there, got really sleepy in the class most of the time... Structure and Chemical Bonding, the lecturer mostly talk to the laptop, write everything in the laptop. He is one of my favourite lecturer, but this time his teaching is cannot be understood. Scientific Mathematics, I never really like mathematics, and this Scientific Mathematics uses the 3 dimensional analysis, something that is really my weakness. I need a long time to analyze something that is described in a 3 dimension room, like the vectors, matrics, etc etc. Transition Metals and Catalysis, the Inorganic Chemistry. This subject learns about the transition metals, how it reacts, how it binds with other compounds to make a complex compunds, how the d orbital split into several energy levels and become paramagnetic/diamagnetic, how transition metals can become catalysts and the mechanism of catalysis. This subject is really full of memorizing things, and I'm very weak in memorizing things. I cannot understand this subject well. Chemistry Principia... If only this subject isn't a must-take subject for honors program students, I definitely won't take this subject. I don't really know what this is about... Every class I attend only talks about things in the world and their relations with chemistry. Suddenly the examination question ask us to analyze the Indonesian energy supply, the new energy sources that Indonesia can use, etc etc and then we had to write an essay for that thing... How should I know??? I'm not an energy expert. Those in minings majors and industrial engineering majors should be the one to deal with this. This is not a simple matter that can be analyzed easily and in a short time (for less than 1.5 hours) and made into an essay...
Now comes the most determining part. Is it ITB that makes it like this? For some reason, yeah... I'm not making ITB the scapegoat, but it really made me have lots of thinking this semester. The change of curriculum this year really really makes so many changes. Most of the lecturers and departments are not ready for this change. Chemistry department is included. Suddenly, some of the courses for 3rd years are moved to 2nd years. Some of them also omitted and become the optional subjects. New system for marks... Now the mark AB and BC is added instead of only A, B, C, D, and E like the previous semesters. This system is somehow plays part in decreasing my GPA... Usually with my marks really really near to A from B (about 74 of 75 or sometimes 84 of 85, depends on the subject) if the lecturer is kind, I will be given a A for that subject... But now? If I got that mark, I won't get an A, I will get an AB instead. This will decrease my GPA for about 0,09 (if it is 4 SKS), this isn't a simple matter... Even though the ones that get B maybe changed to AB (increase 0,09) but still, it doesn't really worthed for me.
I really really got depressed thinking about this. To keep myself in the honors program (as I have written in the earlier post), I need to have GPA at least 3.50 in the end of 6th semester. If I cannot get that GPA, then I can kiss my honors program good bye. If this semester my GPA decrease too sharp, the 6th semester will be a very very difficult semester and I must work harder in the 6th semester...
I counted my mark expectations for this semester... If it everything goes the way I predicted, my GPA will only be 3.43 this semester... GHEEZZZ!!! The 0,41 decrease from last semester, it is a very very very sharp decrease... But if miracle happens, and I hope it will happen to me, I want to get at least 3.50 this semester. So next semester won't be too difficult for me. This really really is a big and heavy burden for me...
Well, nothing I can do right now... The two other exams are coming soon, got to do the best for both, or my GPA will decrease even more... Time to learn, just for a few more days... And holiday will come!
Hopefully this holiday I don't have to go to campus and lab everyday for the analytical project (again for the honors program, we got a special task to analyze something in real world with the knowledge we've learned)... I know it will be fun. But imagining that I will have to make proposal for the research is not that fun... It is up to our lecturer for this, hope that she forgot this project and let us free :p Hopefully, because we really need to take a rest after this long semester...
Two more exams and then I can say good bye to my 5th semester, such a semester full of boredom, laziness, sleepiness, and other kinds of -ness... This is the worst semester I've ever had, I think... This semester my GPA will decrease, I know that; and it such a pain, dammit... But what to do, I really really don't understand most of the subjects I took in this semester... For example: Spectrometric Analysis; Structure and Chemical Bonding; Scientific Mathematics; Transition Metals and Catalysis; Chemistry Principia... 5 of 8 subjects I took, most of them I don't know what they are talking about. Why? Is it something wrong with my brain here? I don't think so, because I still can do some of them, but most of them are really weird ones. Or is it that I am too tired because of taking 23 SKS this semester? Maybe, but still I'm not that tired that I cannot play etc etc...
Is it the lecturer? Well, I don't want to say so, but I cannot really understand what the Spectrometric Analysis lecturer says. She teachs here and there, jump here and jump there, got really sleepy in the class most of the time... Structure and Chemical Bonding, the lecturer mostly talk to the laptop, write everything in the laptop. He is one of my favourite lecturer, but this time his teaching is cannot be understood. Scientific Mathematics, I never really like mathematics, and this Scientific Mathematics uses the 3 dimensional analysis, something that is really my weakness. I need a long time to analyze something that is described in a 3 dimension room, like the vectors, matrics, etc etc. Transition Metals and Catalysis, the Inorganic Chemistry. This subject learns about the transition metals, how it reacts, how it binds with other compounds to make a complex compunds, how the d orbital split into several energy levels and become paramagnetic/diamagnetic, how transition metals can become catalysts and the mechanism of catalysis. This subject is really full of memorizing things, and I'm very weak in memorizing things. I cannot understand this subject well. Chemistry Principia... If only this subject isn't a must-take subject for honors program students, I definitely won't take this subject. I don't really know what this is about... Every class I attend only talks about things in the world and their relations with chemistry. Suddenly the examination question ask us to analyze the Indonesian energy supply, the new energy sources that Indonesia can use, etc etc and then we had to write an essay for that thing... How should I know??? I'm not an energy expert. Those in minings majors and industrial engineering majors should be the one to deal with this. This is not a simple matter that can be analyzed easily and in a short time (for less than 1.5 hours) and made into an essay...
Now comes the most determining part. Is it ITB that makes it like this? For some reason, yeah... I'm not making ITB the scapegoat, but it really made me have lots of thinking this semester. The change of curriculum this year really really makes so many changes. Most of the lecturers and departments are not ready for this change. Chemistry department is included. Suddenly, some of the courses for 3rd years are moved to 2nd years. Some of them also omitted and become the optional subjects. New system for marks... Now the mark AB and BC is added instead of only A, B, C, D, and E like the previous semesters. This system is somehow plays part in decreasing my GPA... Usually with my marks really really near to A from B (about 74 of 75 or sometimes 84 of 85, depends on the subject) if the lecturer is kind, I will be given a A for that subject... But now? If I got that mark, I won't get an A, I will get an AB instead. This will decrease my GPA for about 0,09 (if it is 4 SKS), this isn't a simple matter... Even though the ones that get B maybe changed to AB (increase 0,09) but still, it doesn't really worthed for me.
I really really got depressed thinking about this. To keep myself in the honors program (as I have written in the earlier post), I need to have GPA at least 3.50 in the end of 6th semester. If I cannot get that GPA, then I can kiss my honors program good bye. If this semester my GPA decrease too sharp, the 6th semester will be a very very difficult semester and I must work harder in the 6th semester...
I counted my mark expectations for this semester... If it everything goes the way I predicted, my GPA will only be 3.43 this semester... GHEEZZZ!!! The 0,41 decrease from last semester, it is a very very very sharp decrease... But if miracle happens, and I hope it will happen to me, I want to get at least 3.50 this semester. So next semester won't be too difficult for me. This really really is a big and heavy burden for me...
Well, nothing I can do right now... The two other exams are coming soon, got to do the best for both, or my GPA will decrease even more... Time to learn, just for a few more days... And holiday will come!
Hopefully this holiday I don't have to go to campus and lab everyday for the analytical project (again for the honors program, we got a special task to analyze something in real world with the knowledge we've learned)... I know it will be fun. But imagining that I will have to make proposal for the research is not that fun... It is up to our lecturer for this, hope that she forgot this project and let us free :p Hopefully, because we really need to take a rest after this long semester...
3 comments:
wow kinda weird seeing you so worried about marks, you're always advising me not to worry about marks. Well i do hope you can still get the honors program, but even if you don't, it might some way be a blessing. think of it, if you had the honors you would have to spend an extra year in the dreadful lab again (although you do get a masters degree). why don't u just go to german or austria and learn piano hahaha. and don't say you don't have money, there are scholarships available dude. weiss gaya uy urang full english bo hoho
hei siao siao gor gor,dun worry.i noe u can do ur best.nex semester try harder,k?gambateh..i will support u la.u noe it rite?ehhe.say goodbye to this sem la..wakakaka,i will miss u too after i go bek Msia.
@raisa: well yes, this is the first time I'm worried about my marks after admitted in the Chemistry program. Even though I have to spend an extra year in that dreadful lab, to get a master degree in just 1 year is really worthed u know... Besides, master degree students don't have that much lab class like in bachelor degree; the research is what they do the most... piano? my hand is already stiff after doing lab experiments :p
@tiantian: yo siao siao mei mei... thx for supporting me hehehe. hopefully this semester our marks are not very bad, hahaha... Yup, u are going back to msia soon rite? 16th is it? Kinda forgot the date, because I got too many things to memorize these days T_T Let's just go again together with the others 1 more time later. A good-bye-for-now party. Hahahaha...
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