Relieved

Now I feel somehow relieved... I can peacefully let the 5th semester go away from my mind... The marks are announced and I got GPA 3.74 for this semester. Well, a 0.1 decrease from last semester, but still it's a relief that I didn't get a very sharp decrease. I don't really know how I get that GPA =,=

Since I don't really understand the topics this semester, I just use my feeling when I do my exam. Suddenly I got A for Structure and Chemical Bonds, Spectrometric Analysis, Organic Synthesis, and Chemistry Principia... Organic isn't hard, so I do believe I can get an A. Also my thanks go to the 07's Pharmacy students I've said in the earlier posts, for asking me to give you tuitition for Organic, I love Organic Chemistry. Hohohoho~~~ The 2nd exam for Spectrometric Analysis is quite okay, but I didn't think it helps so much until I can get an A. Structure and Chemical Bonds, I think Mr. Muhamad remembers me and my friends that join his short semester class for Computational Nanoscience, so we got A for this subject; but still my first exam is not so good. I left the number 3d on that exam and lose several points, that is because I didn't see that the number 3d was even there!! Damn... 2nd exam I do it with my feelings and logic thoroughly. Chemistry Principia, the strange subject suddenly turn out A. Again, I don't know where it comes from... Well, I just have to thank the lecturers for giving me an A. Hohoho...

Strangely, the ones I thought I will get an A, such as Civics and Stereochemistry, turn out to get B (for Civics) and AB (for Stereochemistry)... Gheez... That Civics subject is really really strange one. I don't know where the B comes from, and why I only got B for such a subject... Stereochemistry I think I can do it well, but my 1st exam isn't that good... But hey, I did my group presentation all by myself that day!! Since my group friend was going to Jakarta and left me alone with the unmade slides and presentation topics. Please respect my will to try =,=

For the Transition Metals and Catalysts subject and Scientific Maths subject, I got an AB. Those two are the most logical marks for me (well, Organic Synthesis also logical since I understand it, but these two I don't understand), an AB is what I deserve for these subjects. Why? Because I don't like maths, and the Transition Metals and Catalysts subject forced me to memorize the catalyst mechanisms; one think I can never do: MEMORIZING...

The total is I got A for 13 SKS; AB for 8 SKS; and B for 2 SKS... Hohohoho deanlist, here I come to get you again! So, happy with these marks (although a bit disappointed for the 0.1 decrease)... Now I'm confused of what to take next semester... Should I take an optional subject from MKDU? Or from Chemical Engineering? Or from other courses? Pharmacy? Industrial Engineering?Don't know which one is better... I'm just hoping next semester is much better than 5th semester. And I gotta force myself to fight for 6th semester... Ganbatte everyone!!! Jia you!!! Add oil!!! Aza-aza fighting!!! :p

Yui --- Good-bye Days

YUI!!! I love Yui! Her songs are very nice to hear, and she's a cute girl, Japanese girl :D
A composer and a singer. Yui has already launched some albums and many singles. Two of her songs, Life and Rolling Star become the opening and ending song of the anime Bleach.

Yui also played in a movie, titled Taiyou no Uta. In this movie, Yui becomes Amane Kaoru (雨音 薫), a 16 years old girl that is suffered from a skin illness called Xeroderma Pigmentosum, an illness that can cause someone to die from being exposed to the sun. This is because of the deficiency of the DNA repair ability to repair damage caused by UV rays. Here, Yui sings a song titled Good-bye Days. It is a nice song, and the meaning is also very good. The first time I hear it, I don't feel anything special, but after watching the movie, this song quite a sad song I think. Sad and touching if you relate it to the story line. So, here goes, the lyric and the translations :)

Yui - Good-bye Days
だからいま　会いにゆく　そう決めたんだ
ポケットの　この曲を　君に聴かせたい

そっとヴォリュームを上げて　確かめてみたよ

oh Good-bye days　いま　変わる気がする　昨日までに　so long
かっこよくない優しさがそばにあるから
～with you

片方の　イヤフォンを　君に渡す
ゆっくりと　流れ込む　この瞬間

うまく愛せていますか?　たまに迷うけど

oh Good-bye days　いま　変わり始めた　胸の奥　alright
かっこよくない優しさがそばにあるから
～with you

できれば　悲しい　想いなんてしたくない
でもやってくるでしょ?
そのとき　笑顔で　Yeah hello!! my friend　なんてさ
言えたならいいのに…

同じ唄を　口ずさむ時　そばにいて　I wish
かっこよくない優しさに会えてよかったよ

…Good-bye days

Translation
So I'm going to go see you right now, that's what I've decided
I want to have you listen to this song, that I have in my pocket

Quietly, I turned up the volume, to make sure that it was there

Oh good-bye days, right now I've got the feeling that things are going to change; so long to everything up until yesterday
An uncool kindness is at my side
~With you

I pass one ear phone over to you
And this moment slowly streams over to you

Can you really love me? Even though I sometimes lose my way

Oh good-bye days, right now things inside my heart have begun to change, alright
An uncool kindness is at my side
~With you

If possible, I'd like to not have sad feelings
But they'll come to me, won't they?
In those times, it would be good, if only I could say
"Yeah, hello! My friend", with a smile

When we both are humming the same song, I wish for you to be by my side
I'm glad that we were able to meet each other, with such an uncool kindness

... Good-bye days

End of Fifth Semester and Second Holiday Coming...

Yeah, the second holiday is coming... After the first holiday that seemed to have passed in such a short time...

Two more exams and then I can say good bye to my 5th semester, such a semester full of boredom, laziness, sleepiness, and other kinds of -ness... This is the worst semester I've ever had, I think... This semester my GPA will decrease, I know that; and it such a pain, dammit... But what to do, I really really don't understand most of the subjects I took in this semester... For example: Spectrometric Analysis; Structure and Chemical Bonding; Scientific Mathematics; Transition Metals and Catalysis; Chemistry Principia... 5 of 8 subjects I took, most of them I don't know what they are talking about. Why? Is it something wrong with my brain here? I don't think so, because I still can do some of them, but most of them are really weird ones. Or is it that I am too tired because of taking 23 SKS this semester? Maybe, but still I'm not that tired that I cannot play etc etc...

Is it the lecturer? Well, I don't want to say so, but I cannot really understand what the Spectrometric Analysis lecturer says. She teachs here and there, jump here and jump there, got really sleepy in the class most of the time... Structure and Chemical Bonding, the lecturer mostly talk to the laptop, write everything in the laptop. He is one of my favourite lecturer, but this time his teaching is cannot be understood. Scientific Mathematics, I never really like mathematics, and this Scientific Mathematics uses the 3 dimensional analysis, something that is really my weakness. I need a long time to analyze something that is described in a 3 dimension room, like the vectors, matrics, etc etc. Transition Metals and Catalysis, the Inorganic Chemistry. This subject learns about the transition metals, how it reacts, how it binds with other compounds to make a complex compunds, how the d orbital split into several energy levels and become paramagnetic/diamagnetic, how transition metals can become catalysts and the mechanism of catalysis. This subject is really full of memorizing things, and I'm very weak in memorizing things. I cannot understand this subject well. Chemistry Principia... If only this subject isn't a must-take subject for honors program students, I definitely won't take this subject. I don't really know what this is about... Every class I attend only talks about things in the world and their relations with chemistry. Suddenly the examination question ask us to analyze the Indonesian energy supply, the new energy sources that Indonesia can use, etc etc and then we had to write an essay for that thing... How should I know??? I'm not an energy expert. Those in minings majors and industrial engineering majors should be the one to deal with this. This is not a simple matter that can be analyzed easily and in a short time (for less than 1.5 hours) and made into an essay...

Now comes the most determining part. Is it ITB that makes it like this? For some reason, yeah... I'm not making ITB the scapegoat, but it really made me have lots of thinking this semester. The change of curriculum this year really really makes so many changes. Most of the lecturers and departments are not ready for this change. Chemistry department is included. Suddenly, some of the courses for 3rd years are moved to 2nd years. Some of them also omitted and become the optional subjects. New system for marks... Now the mark AB and BC is added instead of only A, B, C, D, and E like the previous semesters. This system is somehow plays part in decreasing my GPA... Usually with my marks really really near to A from B (about 74 of 75 or sometimes 84 of 85, depends on the subject) if the lecturer is kind, I will be given a A for that subject... But now? If I got that mark, I won't get an A, I will get an AB instead. This will decrease my GPA for about 0,09 (if it is 4 SKS), this isn't a simple matter... Even though the ones that get B maybe changed to AB (increase 0,09) but still, it doesn't really worthed for me.

I really really got depressed thinking about this. To keep myself in the honors program (as I have written in the earlier post), I need to have GPA at least 3.50 in the end of 6th semester. If I cannot get that GPA, then I can kiss my honors program good bye. If this semester my GPA decrease too sharp, the 6th semester will be a very very difficult semester and I must work harder in the 6th semester...

I counted my mark expectations for this semester... If it everything goes the way I predicted, my GPA will only be 3.43 this semester... GHEEZZZ!!! The 0,41 decrease from last semester, it is a very very very sharp decrease... But if miracle happens, and I hope it will happen to me, I want to get at least 3.50 this semester. So next semester won't be too difficult for me. This really really is a big and heavy burden for me...

Well, nothing I can do right now... The two other exams are coming soon, got to do the best for both, or my GPA will decrease even more... Time to learn, just for a few more days... And holiday will come!

Hopefully this holiday I don't have to go to campus and lab everyday for the analytical project (again for the honors program, we got a special task to analyze something in real world with the knowledge we've learned)... I know it will be fun. But imagining that I will have to make proposal for the research is not that fun... It is up to our lecturer for this, hope that she forgot this project and let us free :p Hopefully, because we really need to take a rest after this long semester...

Il Divo ft. Tony Braxton --- The Time of Our Lives

This is a very very good and optimistic song... I can say this one song is suitable for my 小妹妹 :p Think optimistic every time, life is much better with it. Recommended to be downloaded and listened to... Download it here: http://www.4shared.com/file/56924045/bc611d5f/The_Time_Of_Our_Lives_-_Ll_Divo_And_Tony_Braxton.html

Song text (and I got the translation below):
There was a dream
Long time ago
There was a dream
Destined to grow

For the lifetime
Of progress
That runs here today
Will go all the way

Hey hey
Feels like we're having
The time of our lives
We'll find the glory
In the end, for all that we are
For all that we are

Hoy es el dia
Es la ocasion de triunfar
Para hacer realidad el destino que soñabamos conseguir
Una vida de lucha nos trajo hasta aqui
Y llegare hasta el final (Heaven knows...)

’Cause it feels like we’re having the time of our lives
Juntos, unidos, triunfara nuestro deseo de ser el mejor
’Cause it feels like we’re having the time of our lives
toda la gloria, junto a mi,
La hora llego de la verdad
El momento llego

Y ya nunca jamas lo podre olvidar...

'Cause it feels like we’re having ('cause it feels...like we're having...)
The time of our lives
toda la gloria, junto a mi,
La hora llego
La hora llego (Oh!...)

We'll find the glory (Find the glory...)
we'll be there (In the end...)
For all that we are
For everything that we wanna be and all that we are
For the time of our lives

For the time of our lives...

Translation for Spanish Part:
There was a dream
Long time ago
There was a dream
Destined to grow

For the lifetime
Of progress
That runs here today
Will go all the way

Hey hey
Feels like we're having
The time of our lives
We'll find the glory
In the end, for all that we are
For all that we are

Today is the day
It is the opportunity to succeed
To achieve the target we dreamed achieve
A life of struggle brought us up here
And it is up to the final (Heaven knows ...)

'Cause it feels like we're having the time of our lives
Together, united, our desire to triumph to be the best
'Cause it feels like we're having the time of our lives
all the glory, along with me,
The hour of truth came
The time came

And you can never forget ...

'Cause it feels like we're having (' cause it feels like we're having ... ...)
The time of our lives
all the glory, along with me,
The time came
The time came (Oh!...)

We'll find the glory (Find the glory ...)
we'll be there (In the end ...)
For all that we are
For everything that we want to be and all that we are
For the time of our lives

For the time of our lives ...

Piano Concerto No. 2 in C Minor Op. 18

This particular concerto has been one of many concertos I like the most. Composed by Sergei Vasilievich Rachmaninov (Сергей Васильевич Рахманинов), a Russian composer who lived in 1873-1943. You can see the picture of him beside. He was not only a composer, but also one of the finest pianist that time, and the last great representative of Russian late romanticism in classical music. The musics he composed was a product of his temperament, this was admitted by himself; and on another occassion he said:

"The new kind of music seems to create not from the heart but from the head. Its composers think rather than feel. They have not the capacity to make their works exalt—they meditate, protest, analyze, reason, calculate and brood, but they do not exalt."

This is what makes his musics so great to listen; well, at least for me. Some of his songs, have keep me alive until today :p Not exaggerating, this is true. It's nice to hear his songs during depression moments, keeping me calm and conscious hahaha...

Well, the composition for Piano Concerto No. 2 in C minor Op. 18 is a bit historical. It was composed after Rachmaninov was cured from a nervous breakdown. The breakdown happened to him because of poor critical reviews of his Symphony No. 1 which he himself described the performance as "indescribable torture" and destroyed the manuscripts afterward. Then, he went into a state called "writer's block", this is a phenomenon involving temporary loss of ability to begin or continue writing, usually due to lack of inspiration or creativity, where he cannot continue composing songs anymore.

But then, a physician named Nikolai Dahl took Rachmaninov into treatment for three months. Supported by Rachmaninov's family and friends, he managed to recover from the breakdown . Greatful and thankful for Dahl's help, Rachmaninov started composing again; the Piano Concerto No. 2, a concerto dedicated to Dahl, was composed.

This concerto is divided into 3 movements, they are:
I. Moderato: C minor (length ~ 11:00)
II. Adagio Sostenuto: C minor -> E major (length ~ 12:00)
III. Allegro Scherzando: E manjor -> C minor -> C major (length ~ 11:30)
Total time of the concerto is approximately 34 minutes, 30 seconds depends on the performance speed.

My favorite movements are the first and the third movements. They are so beautiful and slow yet very vibrant and spectacular...

This song, is good to hear for people who loves romantic classical music. You may download it at:
http://www.classiccat.net/rachmaninov_s/18.htm
You'll need to register but it's for free, so take it!

The musical score can be downloaded from:
http://sheetmusicarchive.net
But it is not for free, so you need to pay for it...

Enjoy this beautiful piece of music...
Piano Concerto No. 2 in C Minor Op. 18

キロロ --- 未来へ

ほら 足元を見て御覧
これが貴方の歩む道
ほら 前を見て御覧
あれが貴方の未来

母がくれた沢山の優しいさ
愛を抱いてあ夢と繰り返した
あの時は未だ幼くて意味等知らない
そんな私の手を握り一緒に歩んで来た

夢は何時も空高くあるから
届かなくて怖いねだけど追い続けるの
自分のストーリだからこそ諦めたくない
不安に成ると手を握り一緒に歩んで来た

その優しいさを時には嫌がり
離れた母へ素直になれず

ほら 足元を見て御覧
これが貴方の歩む道
ほら 前を見て御覧
あれが貴方の未来

その優しいさを時には嫌がり
離れた母へ素直になれず

ほら 足元を見て御覧
これが貴方の歩む道
ほら 前を見て御覧
あれが貴方の未来

ほら 足元を見て御覧
これが貴方の歩む道
ほら 前を見て御覧
あれが貴方の未来

未来へ向かって
ゆっくりと歩いて行く

5th going to be 6th...

Mmmm yeah 5th going to be 6th... But this isn't about age, I'm already 20, no longer 5 years old. (a 5 years old kid wouldn't be writing a blog like this)

5th going to be 6th... That's the semester I'm in right now, 5th semester, going to be 6th semester soon, because this is already the end of 5th semester.

Hopefully the 6th won't be as bad as the 5th. I really really became a lazy bump this time, after one year (3rd and 4th semester) working hard until my flesh and bones were torn apart (wahahaha what an exaggeration...) finally I'm able to join the honors program.

The honors program is a program, for chemistry major only, in which we are able to continue to the master degree for only 1 year after finished the bachelor degree. Of course, the requirements for the continuity to the master degree is not that easy. I have to get GPA above 3.50 when I graduate later. Right now, my GPA overall is 3.44, quite close to 3.50, just hoping that this semester GPA won't decrease... Have to keep my GPA above 3.60 every semester to get GPA above 3.50 in the end of 8th semester.

Aarrgh so many burdens right now. The laziness is haunting me... On my 3rd and 4th semester, I'm able not to sleep for several days, doing those stupid assignments and stupid reports for 4 lab experiments every single week! And now? I need more than 6 hours of sleeping everyday! I cannot do my assignments well, my ability to write reports has become worse than the semester before (although only 2 lab classes this semester), don't have to spirit to learn the lessons (though I've never really learnt before, mwahahahaha~~). Just the desire to sleep and play every single day and minutes. Too tired I think. And not only me that feel this way. All of my friends also feel the same! The 5th semester is the most laziest semester of all. Dammit... Why should the laziness come at the times like this??? Right when we really need the spirit to fight in this semester???

I really cannot stand this semester anymore, I'm really glad this semester has reached to its end. Hopefully, really really hoping, the 6th semester will be much better than this one. Anyway, thank's to the pharmacy 2007 student (Wiwin, Vanesha, Charlie), because you asked me to teach you, that way I can learn my organic chemistry through you, my exam is getting closer and closer also... And my thank's also goes to the pharmacy 2008 international students (Wen, Lai, Tzu, Tian, Nara) same reason, that's also because you asked me to teach you, that way I can learn my physical and inorganic chemistry through you... All of you really helped me in learning, either way, I'm not gonna learn anything this semester... Very very lazy, lazier and lazier each day... Need some time to rest from these things...